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"I'm trying to figure out if i miss you or not. I know i do,but its hard to admit to myself. Hard to admit to something i ultimately am to blame for.But it all got too much,the games,the hot and cold,the feeling i got that you suddenly despised my existence. And i wish everyday since that i didn't do what i did,i knew you where over it all and i knew as a wiped your number from my phone i wouldn't ever see that number appear on my screen again. I was so smug and pleased with myself after i did it,and then it sunk in. I had just erased the one person i have really ever cared for"